OuiLui’s Blog

So, we’re going on to a halloween party tonight…. What, you say? Steph, the girl that lives in her cave…. going out???? YUP! It’s me! Finally going out to my second function in 5 years.. (hehe… just kidding) Although I think it’s going to be great, I can’t even begin to TELL you how painful finding a costume is… To get 4 girls to decide WHAT to wear, HOW to wear it, COMPLETELY match, LOOK hot, and having EVERYONE comfortable wearing the same thing is a MAJOR task! Needless to say, through all the grunts and crying, we finally decided on a spectular outfit… At first, I was EXTREMELY anxious on what I was going to wear… ( pratically nothing, mind you ), but as the days, to hours, to minutes passed, I got a bit more excited to get all "dolled up" for this party that we were going to…… I hope it’s fun….. =P because I’m not dressing up like this for NOTHING!

Now…. It’s 2:46 in the morning, and we just got back from going to this place called V20… I’m extremely tired, but I tell ya… I had a blast.  Four hot chicks, dressed up as fem-bots (from Austin Powers) ruling the entire club… As much as I say, yeah, I don’t like to draw this kind of attention to myself… it was kinda cute. After all, the girls got together, and showed everyone what we were made of….. nothing could stop us!  We were going to enter into a costume contest, which we would have won for SURE… but we were 10 minutes too late.  We would have totally taken first place.  (I’ll show you the pix as soon as I get a chance to upload them… then you can see first hand)

Anyway, through all the pain… the end result was fantastic…..

So… now it’s time to go 99… see ya!

Have you ever felt like you were living a double life? Lately it’s been like that for me.  Pardon me for sounding like a weirdo, but I feel like I’m living inside a bubble.  A bubble that no one is aware of or can get into.  Now don’t think I’m a wacko or anything, just bear with me for a sec as I explain.  Let’s take for instance work….. while you’re at work, things are in motion, you’re like a machine and when you’re in gear, nothing can stop you.  One that perpetual motion starts you’re in this zone that you can’t get out of.  BUT, as soon as you get home, it’s like everything changes. In a way, this is also a bubble or double life…

This, of course, is not the reason I’m writing this, BUT for me, I feel like I have two lives, one where I feel totally and utterly comfortable with, and the other where it makes me feel like I’m completely out of my skin.  Strange you say? Yes…. it is incredibly strange. As much as I think this so called "double life" that I’m living in is a danger zone, I’m afraid my little bubble will pop and my life will be plain and simple…. average…… I hate average….

4 years ago I quit drinking because I felt like my body couldn’t take my crazy alcohol consumption anymore…. 2 years ago I quit drinking coffee because I thought that coffee was bad for my body and I wanted to be healthy… 1 year ago, I decided that tattoos were bad, so I under went the most painful tattoo laser removal treatments in my life.  After 5 treatments, I still need 5 more….3 months ago ( due to my little health kick ), I decided to quit smoking….

Now.. I’m just plain Steph….the one that has no vices…. average….. i hate average…

Therefore, double lives or bubbles of any kind are good…. whether it’s work related, fun related, anything related… it’s good…. as long as it’s controlled…

Yeah, I know, I know… again… Steph makes no sense…. get use to it… =P

For all of you who sent me an email asking me if everything was ok with Kinh and I…. the answer is yes.. (thank you for caring so much). The post had nothing to do with him.  I (Miss cheery all the time), was having a very bad day.  Bless your hearts =)

Things happen in life that can be totally unexpected.  Yet, when they happen, you think to yourself, CRAP!! I knew it all along…. if so, why the hell is it such a shock to me now?  Torn between the reality of what is, and what should be, is something that is sometimes too unbearable to contemplate.  To the average person reading this, you’ll have no idea what I’m talking about, but when you apply it to something, it all makes perfect sense.  Today… life is messed up… but, at the same time… so great…. how could things seem so torn, be so good and so bad at the same time????